Friday, April 28, 2006

ahhh.
nothing beats a cup of frothy, steaming milo. (alright, so not exactly steaming, but piping hot)
shiok.

so here i am at work again... but it's lunchtime now! technically i'm not slacking :P
my last day here!! oh yays. but as yurong said, 'how come the food we've eaten today are all so weird!??!'
blahs.
and i thought i would have better food on my last day :P
morning: gross cos instead of hashbrowns, there were baked beans! bleeaahhs. dashed hopes of a big breakfast :
lunch: yucky specials, and no sweet n sour fish at the chinese stall or yummy veggies! ah wells.

so highlight of the day: my 40c cup of hot milo. ^_-

later gotta do clearance... then zoom off on time.. then it's choir prac!

hmpfs. was quite irritated with myself ytd cos well. kept getting lost at various parts, rhythmn went haywire at some points, pitch was all off... so frustrated at the fact that i simply just can't get the pitch from nothing! argh. so i know it gets easier with more practice but it's horrible to not be able to come in cos my pitch is all wrong! and so i disappeared for the entire psa-a-l-li-te-e-i part. so what if i know the tune. i can't even sing it cos i can't get my note. grrs. testing for solo part was disastrous cos i had no idea what the tune was, and even after fel played it like 5 times or so i still couldn't get it. fumbled my way thru 2 bars, absolutely disappointing. what am i doing??? couldn't prac after i got home cos by the time i'd finished eating, it was 11plus. then had to make stuff for today... and when i go to prac later i'm supposed to have memorised like, 5 songs? plus today we're supposed to finish memorising 8 songs. and i still haven't gotten the solo part. i'm not complaining abt the memorising cos it's essential but i wish i'd more time, or sth. next wk i'm gonna miss mebbe another 3 pracs cos i'll b in philippines... then when i come back i'll hafta catch up again. guess i'd better ask someone to send me the mp3s of the songs so i can at least listen to them overseas...

perhaps i should have foreseen all this unprepared-ness when i made my choice...
but i thought i was doing the right thing.

and another thing:
i'll be MIA every sat till 21may... sorry shee n sam. no choice now. :(


oh wells. at least now i'm rather obsessed with the songs. i have confite on my office desk la. :P jiayouuuuuuu! harhars.

-blessed
12:50 PM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

oooookaaae.
actually i typed a really long post but then the comp hanged... and i'm rather lazy to repeat myself all over again :

so here's the gist:
i'm in office now,
i WAS supremely bored (in the post i was about to publish before the comp hanged) when my colleague came and i had to teach her some uploading stuff cos this is my last wk at work and she has to do uploading after i leave! muahahas. but it's seriously a gross job. hopefully it won't be too hard and time consuming for her.
i HAD throbbing head for the better part of the day (but now it's gone, thank God) and
i had and still have NOTHING to do. absolutely nothing! whee.

though im still trying to decide if it's better to be dying of boredom cos i'm oh-so-free and tyring to stare at the comp screen and act busy or to be drowning under a mountain pile of workload people throw at you.
hmmm.

went out w youzi for the whole afternoon ytd! haha. had our hair cut, temporarily coloured (the aunty insisted... -_- anyway, my weak 'bu yao la's sounded so useless. bahs. but it turned out not bad, until the colour wore out and it became some dark purplish red thing that no one could see... hahaha. but ok la. not bad coming from a salon that looked so suspiciously aunty that youzi n i hesitated to step inside. then both of us went on shopping sprees! alright, not really a shopping spree considering we only bought 2 tees each but hey, that's good coming from someone like me who hates to spend on my own. hehehh. far east plaza has an amazing number of shops la!!! with nice tees! and with sales too!! whoo hoo. :) my legs were totally spent when i got home. argh.

later there's gonna be mtg for the philippines trip.. (it's next week! next week!!!!!!!!!! i've got to teach 175 kids!??!?!?! :O ) and we're having pizza!!! yippee! :D

thurs n fri got choir prac. my weekdays sure are filled with activities eh.... tired.. =.=
ah wells. but at least i'm surviving, and it's not BORING. :P



just a thought that has been residing in my head for quite some time.......
i miss school.

i miss walking in to school and seeing everybody at the class benches
i miss boo-ing zhihua n scaring the wits out of her when she's eating her bread at the class bench
i miss the times when we were talking at the class bench b4 assembly and zh wud tell daryl to move right/left so he could block the sun and just to annoy us he would move around but eventually he would block the sun la. :)
i miss the advertisements during assembly
i miss being able to talk to ching across 6A
i miss having to rush pee club to go for lessons (so it was abit annoying but hey, it was part of school life)
i miss sitting in the classrooms! and how we gals wud complain that the aircon was too cold and ask to increase the temperature while the guys wud argue back by saying it felt like the sahara desert..
i miss hearing gtan tell us fascinating stories abt her shopping escapades or her daughter
i miss laughing my head off w zh during maths tuts
i miss having 'recess' w pee club
i miss the crazy things we used to do like play frisbee or jus slackin in the SL..
i miss standing outside phy lab hoping that it'll rain so we wouldn't have to go for afternoon PE
i miss listening to music sam played while we did chem prac
i miss seeing everyone fall asleep (myself included) during reading period (wahaha!)
i miss the lects where we used to have so much fun vandalising each other's notes, rushing to finish last min hw, voting on where we wanted to go for outings, or even covering our ears to block out a certain lecturer's super loud voice.
i miss putting my bag down in class and asking to go out to toilet, just to see the tutor's flabbergasted look when all 6 of us filed out of the classroom.. (tho eventually that look changed to one of resignation cos we always did it haha)
i miss how we always had to rush back after swimming to class.
i miss macs! hohoho. our secret trips. :P

i miss walking into AVT early and seeing pple doing work there, before choir starts
i miss us singing bdae songs at prac
i miss seeing choir pple all ard sch, how convenient right
i miss youzi/yuru/ching calling out 'moneybags!!!!' when they spotted me fr afar
i miss our super duper long exco meetings where we would all get brain dead halfway
i miss morning pracs!
i miss sitting together w the choir pple during lects ('forbidden' yet so fun)
i miss sms-ing during class n lects! hahaha. which seems ridiculous cos we're all in the same sch, sometimes we're even in the same lect (right, kane?ahhahaha.) but oh come on, we were bored and it was fun :P
i miss dinners at curry wok!!!!! oh, the great food and free flow of rice... all for just $5!! booo. how we would join tables and sometimes the uncle would give us extra food :D
i miss going with ching to collect scores and 'scolding' her for sucking our funds away (ok la, that couldn't be helped, i know. :P)
i miss how we actually had to queue up to give people presents on their birthdays?! like how amazing is that. hahaa.
i miss sitting at the tchs specs stand and talking.
i miss singing with our batch. yes.
i miss germany T_T
and oh yes.
i miss studying and pia-ing like crazy before and after prelims, before As, in the library n reading room... smuggling food into the library (shhh!), having to bring jackets cos the library was freezing cold, sharing funny stories in the breaks we took while studying.. basically just the feeling of all of us working hard together. encouraging each other!! :)

i just miss school on the whole. haha. how weird, you only miss sth after it's gone.. always like that. every stage of life, more memories to cherish. :)

ah.........

-blessed
3:52 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

just when i thought it was getting better, things got worse.

i. am so sick and tired of all this nonsense. when will it ever end?

i really, really loathe this whole cycle of things. to the core.

Lord, why?

:(

-blessed
10:21 PM

Saturday, April 01, 2006

BELIEVE

I say on Sunday how much I want revival
But then on Monday I can't even find my bible
Where's the power, the power of the Cross in my life?

I'm sick of playing the game of religion
Tired of losing my reason for living
Where's the power, the power of the Cross in my life?

I'm not content just to walk though my life
Giving in to the lies
Walkin' in compromises now
We cry out as a generation that was lost
But now is found in the power of the Cross

We believe in You
We believe in the power, of Your Word and it's truth
We believe in You
So we lay down our cause that our cross might be found in You

I'm not satisfied doing it my own way
I'm not satisfied to do church and walk away
I'm not satisfied, there's no love in my life but You
I'm not satisfied living in yesterday's hour
I'm not satisfied to have the form but not the power
I'm not satisfied, Lord I am crucified in You

We believe in You
We believe in the power, of Your Word and it's truth
We believe in You
So we lay down our cause that our cross might be found in You

I'm not satisfied doing it my own way
I'm not satisfied to do church and walk away
I'm not satisfied, there's no love in my life but You
I'm not satisfied living in yesterday's hour
I'm not satisfied to have the form but not the power
I'm not satisfied, Lord I am crucified in You

We believe in You
We believe in the power, of Your Word and it's truth
We believe in You
So we lay down our cause that our cross might be found in You




I'm not satisfied, Lord give me more of You, make me more like You....

-blessed
10:38 AM